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Time to updateSaw Finding Nemo 2 nights ago, seriously the cutest movie you will ever see not to mention i laughed my ass off the entire time.. go see it.k? And funny how when we went there was no one under the age of 18, haha I got mail today from Ian...He's a friend of mine i met on the plane this past valentines day, hes originally from an hour north of here, but hes stationed in NC.. and now NY. So it was good to hear from him. Hes coming home in September, so i finally get to see him again. fun. No really, hes fun as hellIn other news..Robbie got alcohol poisioning...badThis was Friday night.. he didnt get to the hospital until monday.. @%@#@#%@ Then we thought to cancel my trip down therewhich would have been a pain in the ass considering the hotel is prepaid for $700. And the plane ticket ( note: I cant cancel the hotel anyway) some rule they have, i would have to pay the full 700 which is ridiculous.But hes slowly getting better..really dehydrated..sleepin a lot..so i AM goin, i get in there at 530 tomorrow..And its just going to be a chill weekend, a lot of doing nothing, which im fine withJust as long as i have him, i'm happySo bein the last minute person i am..I have clothes covering my floor, and still so much to go get, and doHelp? Ha ;)Its freakin beautiful outside.. starting to finally feel like June...yay <3Im outside,too pretty to be inLater.

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Tornado Warning.We're on the lake, so supposedly they hit more main land, but im looking out the window and its raining so hard i can't see a thing. To us Illinois people, this is remotely exciting. Sad huh.I was supposed to go back down to Whitestar tonight.. but i gotta be up early, and if i was hungover itd make things worse. So im home... fun I start our guard training tomorrow. So my days shot .Pool from 8 am to 5. Doing this every year gets a little repetative and everyones so cranky and tired when we're done, but i guess its good that we all really know what we're doing.Anyone else not want to work this summer? School i need to pay for partly, so its something i have to do .Cash flow is needed. Then again this is only 7.50 an hour, but we're outside so i can't complain.Busy week next weekCrazy how time has flown bySeriously, its mind blowing lately. Everything seems to be moving so quickly. I want things to slow down a bit. New Orleans in exactly a week. Anxious? my god. This has been something we've been waiting months for.. so yeah <3 Finally.p.s. This is becoming ridiculously trendy in Lj's but i like itLJ Barcode

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So im seriously photoshop illiterate =/Dude this is awfulI have the final "Artistic Autobiography" due tomorrow at 2And one part of it has to be photoshopand its gonna be rough.Edit: If i havent talked/called you in awhile, its because of finals, and this ridiculous final project. I'm alive, promise.Friday.. I'm done.And i cannot tell you what relief that isIts been a long yearA lot to do academicallySo its nice that its thisclose to bein overNot to mention a huge weight has been lifted off my shouldersOoooh I got my AA miles in the mail..got 5,000 extra, anyone want me to come visit?hahaSpeaking of... 16 days until I'm in New Orleans w/Robbie.Sorry.. im very much looking forward to that.He gets to put up with me ALL summer.poor guy =/ ;)Anyway, I gotta get back to work on all this..But i realized somethin about a certain someone i wrote about a few entries downI don't miss his friendship at all.Sounds so cynical and evilBut its not at allAnyway, just a realizationHope all is well

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Haha LMAO you should see me right now, ice like tied around my head oh so hot.Anyway.. got my wisdom teeth out today..Supposedly i talked to the docter afterwardswalked to my moms car and talked to her on the way homesat down in our kitchenand then went upstairsbut i dont remember ANY of that..I remember was lying down in the chair, and they told me to close my eyesAnd then wtf the next minute i wake up in my bedHaha its not that bad.. just a lil bloodIt doesnt hurt.. yet, so im happy (haha im drugged up, thats probably why )been usin the past hour to buy clothes onlineanyone else do that when their bored?Watch me not remember what the hell i ordered tomorrow amha but whateverA few of my girls are stoppin by in a bitThen i'm headed Back to bed, just took my Vicodin.Call me if you want, believe me , im bored

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MM interesting day...Robbie and i got in a huge argument last night, which was wonderful (sarcasm) I was kinda down all day about that, and we have still yet to talk.. so i don't know whats goin' on with all that. Basically i questioned something, and that got him upsetDrove my little sister to St.Charles for her damn equestrian competition. The whole trip took 6 hours.. Check this.. an hour into it she tells me she forgot the most important thing, her riding jacket.. so i had to turn around and drive home. =/ HAHA i wasn't happy. But when she got there and saw her horse and all that , she was happy. Tonight was chill, went out to dinner with my mom, we hadn't done that in forever so it was nice to talk.. her and i don't get along too well, but lately we're doin alright.Wisdom teeth out tomorrow... mm im scared to death of the dentist, so this should be interesting, haha he gave me 4 zanax's to take an hour before my appt. hopefully that will relax me a bit.Anyway- a week left of class <333 then relief.Have a great weekend allI Love You

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I don't even know where to start with this entry, i don't at all. Ok so everyone think of the most jealous guy you know O_o got him in mind?K.Anyway. Ryan and i stopped talking again. Forever, this time.If you know our history, cool, then you know what i'm talking about, if not. then.. you won't get this.I'm just hurt. I have an amazing guy in my life, and the kid cannot be happy for me. Instead he gets so jealous, and so rude. This isnt the first time either, i was sick of it months ago.. But last night... I realized, one doesn't deserve a genuine friendship, like the one i gave to him, if he's going to act in such a ridiculous way. He knows that too.. He's told me on occasion he knows he doesn't deserve someone like me in his lifeAs a person, i stood behind him 110% alwaysAnd...Whatever. This sucks.I found a picture of us when i was goin through shit last night, it was weird, i hadnt come across it for a few months, and there it wasAnywayAnything ending is hardespecially a friendshipEven when i know i should have ended this friendship long ago.. i have someone who makes me happier then i ever though possibleHe completely has my heart, hes amazing, im very lucky.But as for ryI'd like to think he'll change his attitude sooner or laterOr atleast grow up, he's 25 not 10But I give up.The end.

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Sleeping when its storming out, is the greatest.No?Last night, went to Blu with the girls, didn't have to wait in the line , Ty was at the door. "my favorite girl is here" then let us in. He's a cool guy. Seemed like all of Chicago was out last night. Anyone else notice this?Robbie flew back to CA for his sisters graduation thurs., i'm missing him lots right now. He's surfing as we speak. Yes, i'm very jealous . Ha oh and I talked to his mom last night, shes an absolute doll. He's spending some time with his boys and the fam-I think they are glad to have him home for a bit. Linda, i'll take you up on the help girl, thanks honey <3And ANGEL, I'm so proud of you seriously, i was saved freshman year of HS, and its amazing. <3 im praying for you babes

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I havent updated in a whileI think its about timeI propably haven't updated, due to the fact that my life isnt remotely exciting at the moment. Haha its kinda nice for a change actually. Todd called me last night. I adore him, seriously. And he's a trip too, haha i love it. He really seems to know what he wants to do, and is really at peace with all that. I think thats awesome. Good for you todd :)got $200 back today, kinda nice.It also occured to me today, that I HAVE SOMEONE LIVING WITH ME THIS SUMMER <33 And i have to get my shit together.. haha. Theres a lot that i gotta do. Earlier this week, i had my final interview..O_o I'm Head guard at the beach this year *flexes* ;) no.. But there are not many jobs where you are half naked most the time, and get paid for it. ha.. But its a fun job none the less,but you gotta know what you're doin. June 14th the beaches open. We have some ridiculously brutal extra training the week before. Werd to 50 degree water, when the air is like 60. Ohh pre - season training. haha i think we all dread that. If only i lived somewhere remotely warmer then this pos state :) California anyone? I'm up for a move ;)Anyway, Whats with anorexia and bulemia becoming trendy? Mm i cannot tell you how many of my girl friends have started that. I'll admit, the whole throwing up thing ive done a few times. =/ (before i knew what self respect was, and had none) but Hi. The whole throwing up everything, im not all about. I can't look at it.It feels disgusting.just no. GROSS. i'm over that. I guess its kinda hard, living with a mother who modeled for Ford in NYC for a few years, and who still to this day has an eating disorder. ha i love it when people come up to me and ask me if i model. my response " oh hell no" I Saw what it did to my mom. No Thanks. She'll always make sure im looking as good as i can,(this is why i feel i have to look perfect all the time) if not, she'll comment.. whatever. pisses me off. Its so nice once in a while to throw on a hoodie, eat shitty food, wear no makeup and just chill, and be happy with that. <3 I love it2#^#$&#$. Ever since ive been little, I've been brought up to be the girl, my mom always wanted.( too bad her and i disagree all the time) ;) . "Each step is closer to perfection" When no one is perfect, and i personally think flaws are amazing, they make us who we are. Anyhow the point is, its scaring me to see everyone so unhappy, let alone the girls i love and adore, and hi, i think they're beautiful. But being girls... enough is never enough.. and you're never "perfect"... so the cycle continues. im sick of watching my friends fall into it. Just <3333 =/ you're beautiful.respect yourself, PLEASESchool ends the 23rd. And R-E-L-I-E-F. Haha. I have one more huge paper, and when thats done.. its all over with .And let me tell you, for that i can't wait. *dances*Im headed out for a run for an hour.. weeeI also have a wonderful person in my life, that brings out the absolute best in me, and for him.. I'm so greatful.Hope everyones doin' well. If you need anything let me know. Okay?.. :)

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Have you ever tried to drink something when your mouth is numb..through a straw?How about smile?and only half of your face does ithaha semi amusing.ok ok my 11 year old sister found it the funniest thing in the world Anyway, i had an 8 am dentist appt. today. I'm not afraid of much at all, but the dentist im scared to death of. The drills, the smell, the whole deal, im not a fan of any of that. Anyway, i go into and tell my dentist before he even touches me, that it takes an insane amount of novicane to numb me even remotely (seriously is weird) so he puts in double the amount he usually does, starts to drill and OHMYGOD @#$(@*#%* :( it hurt so fucking bad.. i swear it felt like he touched a nerve, so i like fly half way out of the chair, and he like flips out, and tells me i can't move.. So.....at this point, it hurt so bad a few tears have like made their way out of my eyes. Im a big girl, but wow. that hurt.. and i wasnt happy being there in the first place, so it was a mess. Anyway. he puts more novicane this time on the roof of my mouth, and i got through it. Funny thing is the novicane should normally wear off in an hour 1/2.. or 2 at most.. mine just wore off an hour ago so 5 hours after the fact, just shows you how much the put in me. The whole thing left me nautious not to mention i felt like i was 5 ;) ok werd to me being a baby today </3
debated going to class...worked out for 2 hours instead and bought a few things ,haha i the ammex card. and on my way home.. stopped and visited my dad. Its always so peaceful there.
And i realized i really gotta get on the ball, finals in a lil bit
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And a month until New Orleans..
you dont even know how happy that makes me :)
Oooh and i think i finally decided on a school for the fall... University of Kentucky

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Why do ex boyfriends randomly re surface.. ?seriously.TravisWe were together last summer for like 2 months, if thatok short relationshiprandomly decided to make his presence known againnohaha don't get me started

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Would anyone actually wear live journal clothing?No.Just sayin'anyway- gonna go wash the jeep <3

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Gah I'm worn out mentally, but happy :) <33I just need summer so i can chillI think i need that more then anything, right now theres so much to get done, and it seems like no progress is being madegotta hate that. And my boss hasnt called so i dont know whats up with that. I'm starting to get nervousMm my day..Got my eyebrows done, toes and nailsI think i have ocd, bahahaIts ridiculous, my teeth always have to be really white. my nails and toes always have to be neat and painted, and my eyebrows have to be perfect. I guess its good to maintain yourself, but whatever. =/then i answered the phone about an hour agoAnd i recognized the voiceIt was my moms best friend from collegeRenee Russo.. shes an actress i dont know whos heard of her and who hasn't, but they STILL are on the phone. Shes a doll,I'm giving it another 2 hoursSo my girls came over and i painfully sat through the bachelor.. american idol was before that and THANKFULLY carmen was voted off.. something about her is off.. she seemed kinda fake.. reality tv, has gotten to be the biggest joke...just saying. so why are oranges so damn good? i had like 4 today . And i need a new comforter, anyone want to go sheet shopping? target/bed bath and beyond.oh yesAnyway, i hope everyones keeping their head upIf you need anything, come find me <3ILU

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Easter break..3 day weekend <333Oh and 51 days..yes, i've started counting ;)edit: I was bored..Say Goodbye What Dave Matthews Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

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So todd called me last night, kept me laughing my ass off. He tends to have that effect on me, ha and told me i have to update this bitch :) So i am.. 26 days of class left.. too bad they seem like they are never ending.. but seriously. Schools got to be the biggest joke lately: Everything and anything seems to be due within the next 3 weeks, which has got me stressing out, tons. Whats up with this crappy weather, yesterday was like 80 and gorgeous... last night even, was perfect. I was a dork and sat outside with Carrie for a while, talking about anything and everything. Its cool to catch up with people.. seems like none of us has a minute to sit still lately, so that was cool. And yeah, wake up this morning and its a good 30 degrees colder and raining.. i swearthats chicago for you =/Another thing, Ryan and i stopped talking , completely. Great huh? yeah that sucks ass. Considering hes a very close friend of mine, Whatever, I found out i only put up with so much =/ i just got sick of it.New Orleans.... in a month and a half.. I cannot tell you how much im looking forward to that. I get to be with one of my favorite people in the world <3 So yeah, fun times, be jealous. ..I've also been kinda distant lately and when i get stressed i tend to do that, yeah i suck sometimes so if ive been that way to you, i apologize, seriously.

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Wow..I havent written in awhile.. Today, Paiges birthday. Haha god i love that girl, seriously -- im ridiculously lucky to have the amazing friends i have, let alone my really close girl friends. Not many people have what i have. I consider myself privilaged. Anyway.. we took her out to lunch, then headed over to Patricks tonight. It was a ridiculousy chill night, and it was something that was needed. Patrick was wearing his.. steve maddens.. mm i was like "robbie has those" his were blue/grey . Lol at everyone noticing, robbies thought about every 2 seconds. fyi patrick ive known for like 9285 years and is like my brother, hes amazing.seriously.Anyway, i gotta be up early in the a.m. Christines picking me up-Gotta make a starbucks run if i want to attempt to keep my eyes open =/. What a weekend, seriously... genuinely happy, is exactly what i am. And hey.. i'm in love with an amazing guy, so what could be better?. .... g'night<3

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Packing... edit : attempting toI love how i wait until the last minute..Always..Tomorrow, noon, im out of here for a weekahh today accomplished nothing, seriously. Went to my first class, Ran 5 miles, then picked up the application for the beach. WTF with me having to re apply every year. I ran into Charlie (my boss) and we talked for awhile. good times.Can you tell im getting beach ready =/ god, summer hurry

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So today started off shitty- then got interesting. You know when you have a lot to do, and don't want to start? haha that was today. Spring break starts saturday, THANK GOD :) Headed down to s. florida sat at noon. come back the following saturday, going to be crazy fun- can't wait. today wasnt too exciting- class, and then txt messaged angel all day, lol we stalk eachother, yes.Went tanning tonight, its weird, i always look like ive been somewhere BEFORE i go on vacation.. i take base tan to the extreme. ha- anyway. I walk in there, and Logan was working. Ok. Think Ryan Seacrest american idol/surfer, dirty blonde hair, blue eyes, too tan, but ridiculously good looking. Yeah thats him, anyway we get to talking (wtf is up with me going there to tan, and spending an extra hour =/ sidetracked) and this guy walks in, and keeps looking at me as logan and asks if my name is Riley. Riley? thats my dogs name ;) but i tell him no, and he says i look like her, he met her xmas break. blah blah.. and then out of no where, Logan comes over, and grabs my left hand. Takes off the ring he wears on his thumb, and slides it on my ring finger, and goes " sorry, shes mine" The guy kinda laughs, but logan like keeps his eyes on the guy. I'm stanging there extremely confused. Anyway, the guy takes off. Logan explains to me that the guys pretty shady ( all we were doing was talking!!!)So finally i tan - and as im leaving Logan hands me a piece of paper as i walk out." Don't i wish you were mine, have a great spring break with your girls call me when you get back"and his cell #. So i turn around and through the window hes smiling, it was kinda cute on his part, dontcha think? Anyway. Todd called tonight, mm drinking. haha i swear hes the definition of a genuine friend,kept me laughing my ass off. Things are just crazy around here, a week away will be awesome =/ Right now im working on a paper, and i have to cite the literature.. ah and it has to be perfect, too bad its taking WAY TOO LONG. And on another note: with all thats going on in Kuwait/Iraq- Can't help but think about everyone over there. This is the only thing lately thats really caught my attention. Well ok, the worlds attention. But seriously, people putting their lives on the line, for the country. Major respect. Ian and i had a huge conversation about that a few days ago... its intense. Keep them in your prayers. With all that, im out. Haha going to finish this bitch of a paper <33 Dream Sweet. ILU

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Haha ok, quizzila is mildly entertaing, ive been laughing my ass off for awhile. ooooh-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Whichmeans you're rare or that you cheated :P You'rethe kind of chick that can hang out with yourboyfriend's friends and be silly. You don'tcare about presents or about going to fancyplaced. Hell, just hang out. You're just happybeing around your boyfriend. What Kind of Girlfriend Are You? brought to you by QuizillaHaha ok. werd.you bet thats the truth ;) but what is up with the scary anime chick O_oIts raining.. Went for a run in it earlierI love it.Harassing Angel with txt messages, haha 1/2 of them won't send. GAHAnyway i think im going to go pick up the pictures from Fri night<3 Peace

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edit. Ian called today, my cell rang during dinner, and i almost choked. He hasnt been shipped out.They've been out doing field drills and all that, what a relief to hear his voice :)but yeah SeriouslyThis is getting ridiculous...My mom and I don't get along at all. I guess without a husband around, its hard doing it all. I can't imagine being in her place. I just miss him so much sometimes =/ especially when i get upset, he always knew what to do, and i could talk to him. I never had that kind of relationship with my mom. I was such daddys little girl. And now.. everythings so forced. I know she loves me.. just. See im the one, always " i love you mom" or giving her hugs. B/c im affectionate like that, shes not that way at all. Its a push and pull. I guess our relationship will never be exactly what i want.. And i have to be okay with that. Like today.. She went crazy. no literally, and its like i get blamed for all the issues in her life. its just.. ridiculous. Oh and shes NEVER wrong.. in her eyes. so that doesn't make things any easier. I do love that woman to death <3 When i think of strength, class, and beauty- i immediately picture my mother. Anyway, enough bitching. Did some shopping today. Pre spring break ( GOD I cant wait to haul ass out of here) Haha Abercrombie.. the shorts.. let me just say. literally , they are 2 inches long. And im talking EVERY single pair in the store. They look cute as hell on. But hi, do i want a tan ass cheek showing when i walk down the street. haha exactly, NO. But i got a lot.. almost too much today ;) 4 days... im counting down the hours.. literally.. Ah and i missed real world tonight. damn GAH Trish(trash)-chelle and steven.. ahh reruns.g'night. I love you all.dream sweet

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Ahh I hate being like everyone else and getting all "Emo" about this warBut when you have a friend, that could be shipped out, you realize how scary it is. So i called Ian today.. And there was a message on his cell. They are on 2 hour. So they are probably being briefed about everything. and yeah. I hope his ass doesn't leave. Most of them at Ft.Bragg have left...=/God. This suckson a lighter note. Ever so sure of something? yeah . Robbies amazing.

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St. Patricks dayCheck this. Jeans, and a lil green shirt that says "everyone loves an irish girl" shamrock sticker on the ass of my jeans, and a tiny one, on the corner of my eye. Irish pride :) haha even though i dont look remotely irish, dark hair, tan. Mmm i am. Anyway. Chris picked me up after class and spun me around. that fucker, lol spinnie rides and my tummy dont mix, therefore, that wasn't cool either. Then there was a note the Jeep from the Kappa Alpha boys. Haha i <3 them. And today was soo gorgeous. wow... can it stay like this everyday? Too bad it makes class 10 x's harder to sit in when its so nice out. Brought my camera to class, should have those soon, yay. Wtf with this weather making everyone in a more pleasent mood.haha including myself. Ahh FYI Robbie i <3 you... <3 Midterms are over, thank god.. now i just get the grades back.. haha ....that should be interesting.PS .. how great is Angel? Amazing, seriously. After talking to him last night, my stomach hurt from laughing..mmmmkay. Baha hes great.Best of luck to him and Mellysah that boys got a heart of gold. How sweet is this? seriously---> On another note, I met Ana two days ago ( RowdyOne on FTJ ) and that girl just blows me away in all sorts of different ways. I laughed so much with her last night I called her before I talked to Melyssah and after for a little bit. God, I havent laughed that much in such a long time. It was something I needed severly. I look way forward to talking to her a lore more =D I also started talking to Cassi ( Seskibish on FTJ ) and she's fucking hilarious to. I've been meeting so many new wonderful people, I love it! =D Just yeah :) Hes awesome, kick ass friend, say what? its true.

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Wtf at me being ridiculously tired. Wow..Im get all cranky and emo when im tired Shiiiiit. Midterms this week have been brutal, literally.. =/ Anyway tonight was pretty cool- headed into the city, to Blu. It was so gorgeous today- and the first time in awhile we could cruise with the windows open, and the sky was clear.. stars were out.soo nice. I need summer to be here, now. Carrie drove.. ok, let me say when ever we drive with her, its funny as hell, not to mention there were four of us + Liz who has got to be the loudest chick i have ever come across.. no really. So i'm kinda leaning against the window talking to carrie and she shrieks a lil bit, and i'm like "what?" i turn and look out the window, and theres this guy on a bike, just staring in my window. He gets in front of us, then back to my side. Ok At this point, im like on the floor of her explorer. Whatever, =/ shady. We get to Blu, Ty ( my ex) works the door, he let us in. I wasnt about to wait in line..no, not because im a crazy prissy bitch- See i think coats are over rated, there fore never wear one. Yeah ok. even when its like -20. Everyone thinks im ridiculous. But hey.. Anyway--Beau was tending bar .. I haven't seen him since August, he was in LA for a bit. GOD i miss that kid - it was so good to see him.Mmmm The rest of the night was pretty typical, until we ran into some chick i have class with and her boyfriend. Funny how i sat there telling my girls her whole crazy relationship, and they are like ' how the hell do you know this' Um hi, ..the bathroom. Girls understand that, guys don't. You go to pee, but you walk out with like 23235 new stories, and everyones oh so dramatic lives.. gah. It was funny. I'm home, in my jammies, drinkin my apple juice, i love it. Juice reminds me of bein lil or something. Mm tonight i realized i have the most kick ass girl friends ever... I love them to death.. <33 G'night, Dream Sweet

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sooo yeahNene gave me her livejournal..<3Thanks sweetieps Casey called me a parallelogram,wtf #$% thats hilarious ok