Pina coladas..palm trees...

I havent updated in a whileI think its about timeI propably haven't updated, due to the fact that my life isnt remotely exciting at the moment. Haha its kinda nice for a change actually. Todd called me last night. I adore him, seriously. And he's a trip too, haha i love it. He really seems to know what he wants to do, and is really at peace with all that. I think thats awesome. Good for you todd :)got $200 back today, kinda nice.It also occured to me today, that I HAVE SOMEONE LIVING WITH ME THIS SUMMER <33 And i have to get my shit together.. haha. Theres a lot that i gotta do. Earlier this week, i had my final interview..O_o I'm Head guard at the beach this year *flexes* ;) no.. But there are not many jobs where you are half naked most the time, and get paid for it. ha.. But its a fun job none the less,but you gotta know what you're doin. June 14th the beaches open. We have some ridiculously brutal extra training the week before. Werd to 50 degree water, when the air is like 60. Ohh pre - season training. haha i think we all dread that. If only i lived somewhere remotely warmer then this pos state :) California anyone? I'm up for a move ;)Anyway, Whats with anorexia and bulemia becoming trendy? Mm i cannot tell you how many of my girl friends have started that. I'll admit, the whole throwing up thing ive done a few times. =/ (before i knew what self respect was, and had none) but Hi. The whole throwing up everything, im not all about. I can't look at it.It feels disgusting.just no. GROSS. i'm over that. I guess its kinda hard, living with a mother who modeled for Ford in NYC for a few years, and who still to this day has an eating disorder. ha i love it when people come up to me and ask me if i model. my response " oh hell no" I Saw what it did to my mom. No Thanks. She'll always make sure im looking as good as i can,(this is why i feel i have to look perfect all the time) if not, she'll comment.. whatever. pisses me off. Its so nice once in a while to throw on a hoodie, eat shitty food, wear no makeup and just chill, and be happy with that. <3 I love it2#^#$&#$. Ever since ive been little, I've been brought up to be the girl, my mom always wanted.( too bad her and i disagree all the time) ;) . "Each step is closer to perfection" When no one is perfect, and i personally think flaws are amazing, they make us who we are. Anyhow the point is, its scaring me to see everyone so unhappy, let alone the girls i love and adore, and hi, i think they're beautiful. But being girls... enough is never enough.. and you're never "perfect"... so the cycle continues. im sick of watching my friends fall into it. Just <3333 =/ you're beautiful.respect yourself, PLEASESchool ends the 23rd. And R-E-L-I-E-F. Haha. I have one more huge paper, and when thats done.. its all over with .And let me tell you, for that i can't wait. *dances*Im headed out for a run for an hour.. weeeI also have a wonderful person in my life, that brings out the absolute best in me, and for him.. I'm so greatful.Hope everyones doin' well. If you need anything let me know. Okay?.. :)

Drool???

Have you ever tried to drink something when your mouth is numb..through a straw?How about smile?and only half of your face does ithaha semi amusing.ok ok my 11 year old sister found it the funniest thing in the world Anyway, i had an 8 am dentist appt. today. I'm not afraid of much at all, but the dentist im scared to death of. The drills, the smell, the whole deal, im not a fan of any of that. Anyway, i go into and tell my dentist before he even touches me, that it takes an insane amount of novicane to numb me even remotely (seriously is weird) so he puts in double the amount he usually does, starts to drill and OHMYGOD @#$(@*#%* :( it hurt so fucking bad.. i swear it felt like he touched a nerve, so i like fly half way out of the chair, and he like flips out, and tells me i can't move.. So.....at this point, it hurt so bad a few tears have like made their way out of my eyes. Im a big girl, but wow. that hurt.. and i wasnt happy being there in the first place, so it was a mess. Anyway. he puts more novicane this time on the roof of my mouth, and i got through it. Funny thing is the novicane should normally wear off in an hour 1/2.. or 2 at most.. mine just wore off an hour ago so 5 hours after the fact, just shows you how much the put in me. The whole thing left me nautious not to mention i felt like i was 5 ;) ok werd to me being a baby today </3
debated going to class...worked out for 2 hours instead and bought a few things ,haha i the ammex card. and on my way home.. stopped and visited my dad. Its always so peaceful there.
And i realized i really gotta get on the ball, finals in a lil bit
ahhhhhh
And a month until New Orleans..
you dont even know how happy that makes me :)
Oooh and i think i finally decided on a school for the fall... University of Kentucky

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Why do ex boyfriends randomly re surface.. ?seriously.TravisWe were together last summer for like 2 months, if thatok short relationshiprandomly decided to make his presence known againnohaha don't get me started

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Would anyone actually wear live journal clothing?No.Just sayin'anyway- gonna go wash the jeep <3

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Gah I'm worn out mentally, but happy :) <33I just need summer so i can chillI think i need that more then anything, right now theres so much to get done, and it seems like no progress is being madegotta hate that. And my boss hasnt called so i dont know whats up with that. I'm starting to get nervousMm my day..Got my eyebrows done, toes and nailsI think i have ocd, bahahaIts ridiculous, my teeth always have to be really white. my nails and toes always have to be neat and painted, and my eyebrows have to be perfect. I guess its good to maintain yourself, but whatever. =/then i answered the phone about an hour agoAnd i recognized the voiceIt was my moms best friend from collegeRenee Russo.. shes an actress i dont know whos heard of her and who hasn't, but they STILL are on the phone. Shes a doll,I'm giving it another 2 hoursSo my girls came over and i painfully sat through the bachelor.. american idol was before that and THANKFULLY carmen was voted off.. something about her is off.. she seemed kinda fake.. reality tv, has gotten to be the biggest joke...just saying. so why are oranges so damn good? i had like 4 today . And i need a new comforter, anyone want to go sheet shopping? target/bed bath and beyond.oh yesAnyway, i hope everyones keeping their head upIf you need anything, come find me <3ILU

I Miss him =/

http://photos.yahoo.com/bc/rowdyonexo/vwp?.dir=/Ana+n+Dad&.src=ph&.dnm=daddynana.jpg&.view=t&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/bc/rowdyonexo/lst%3f%26.dir=/Ana%2bn%2bDad%26.src=ph%26.view=thttp://photos.yahoo.com/bc/rowdyonexo/vwp?.dir=/Ana+n+Dad&.src=ph&.dnm=anandaddy.jpg&.view=t&.done=http%3a//photos.yahoo.com/bc/rowdyonexo/lst%3f%26.dir=/Ana%2bn%2bDad%26.src=ph%26.view=tMy mom came across those from when i was lil..Anyway.. I'm gettin sleepyDream Sweet

Yay

Easter break..3 day weekend <333Oh and 51 days..yes, i've started counting ;)edit: I was bored..Say Goodbye What Dave Matthews Song Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

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....people who assumethat gets to me more then anything.not cool